[He nods again. Yes, yes, yes: Yes, he understands just how "normal" just means "unquestioned;" yes, he wants to get married; yes, yes, yes, nothing could lessen the love between them--the love they are. If nothing else, that will always be a surety.]
Yeah. For me...
[The thought's still taking shape, and he pauses for a moment, tracing the shape of her cheek for a moment like it might lead him to the conclusion he's looking for. Somewhen, they became each other's maps, these two. He lifts a hand to tuck a curl bend her ear.]
Marriage didn't even seem like a real thing I could do, growing up.
[In some ways, growing up didn't seem like a thing he could do, growing up. Sure, maybe he'd get older--maybe he'd get bigger, stronger, smarter, find a way to stand his own ground--but why should anything ever have to change the way he and Bro lived? It was the way things always had been, before SBURB.
After SBURB, for some reason, the whole concept seemed ridiculous. Having a future, that is.]
When--when we do, it'll be... It feels like I'll be putting that all behind me, forever. Really... really stepping forward into the life I want to live with you.
[Live, she ordered him, like she somehow understood he wouldn't know how on his own. Because she did; because she knew, and knows, how hard it is, still, to trust that the steady chain of tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow won't suddenly snap on them.]
If that's what being married is, then I feel weird about doing it here, when... when I want forever to really mean forever. Especially a forever with you.
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Yeah. For me...
[The thought's still taking shape, and he pauses for a moment, tracing the shape of her cheek for a moment like it might lead him to the conclusion he's looking for. Somewhen, they became each other's maps, these two. He lifts a hand to tuck a curl bend her ear.]
Marriage didn't even seem like a real thing I could do, growing up.
[In some ways, growing up didn't seem like a thing he could do, growing up. Sure, maybe he'd get older--maybe he'd get bigger, stronger, smarter, find a way to stand his own ground--but why should anything ever have to change the way he and Bro lived? It was the way things always had been, before SBURB.
After SBURB, for some reason, the whole concept seemed ridiculous. Having a future, that is.]
When--when we do, it'll be... It feels like I'll be putting that all behind me, forever. Really... really stepping forward into the life I want to live with you.
[Live, she ordered him, like she somehow understood he wouldn't know how on his own. Because she did; because she knew, and knows, how hard it is, still, to trust that the steady chain of tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow won't suddenly snap on them.]
If that's what being married is, then I feel weird about doing it here, when... when I want forever to really mean forever. Especially a forever with you.